Thanks - I'm better already but it's deflating!

I've been holding steady at my breaking point for over a week now — with ONE too many things with deadlines right on top of each other — An overzellous work road trip yesterday was cut short after I slid through a stop sign on icy roads in a town in Timbucktoo; elderly people that witnessed it followed me until I stopped to yell at me about how disrespectful I was to run a stop sign in their town - with the old man hollering - “I've died twice since July - I sure don't need your help” — I appoligized and said I was quiet shaken too… they didn't seem to “get that” and continued with their reprimand for what seemed like an eternity — At about 3:30p - I finally broke down at a gas station when I went in seeking directions - and found out that the “road” I was supposed to take will indeed get me to where I need to be - but it's a logging trail — and not recommended… without chains on my tires, warm clothes and food in case I get stuck “out there” - forget cell service. So there was a whole leg of work that didn't get done - but I NEEDED to call it a day - as it was, shortly after that decision — I encountered a guy who had driven off into the ditch - he was fine, shaken - and couldn't remember how to use his cell phone to call his wife for help — so I helped him and called the police. I felt like these were signs or something - to SLOW down, take it easy, take care of you… I called my boss - couldn't reach her — have the guilt that she's screening her calls — I left her a message that “it is what it is” - and I'll figure the rest out tomorrow — that night - total meltdown while talking with my husband about the craziness I'm experiencing at present — my cold that's been clinging for a week feels worse, and oh yeah — the body aches are traced to bruises I sustained after I fell at a clien'ts the other day — I fell hard - a$$ over tea kettle or some clishe — but I laughed it off at the time as embarrassment - knowing it'll hurt later — well now it's later - my knee is swollen like a grapefruit, I ache everywhere, there's not enough Dayquill in the world to make me feel better — I called in sick today — I've already spent 2 hours working from home because I have guilt about not getting things done… I applogized to our secretary for any inconvenience this may cause — I NEEDED TODAY for ME — so instead of being in bed like I should - I'm searching for a remedy for my guilt —

The most frustrating thing for me is — I HATE DRAMA — I don't want to hear about it in the workplace, I feel like speople bring it on themselves — and here I AM MIRED in my own DRAMA - I just need to let it go — start over on Monday - and leave it behind me — sometimes crappy things happen to good people, and then it's done. The guilt thing though really bothers me - - I SHOULD NOT FEEL GUILTY — I think anyone reading the above would recognize I need a day - maybe a week away - maybe therapy at this point… but it still nags at me — If I can try and help anyone else - and talk myself through to some level of rationalization — I would say all this guilt — stems from perfectionism — if I don't do something the absolute best I can - It really takes a toll - and that's ridiculus — I heard a great saying the other day - I've been trying to use as a mantra — pass it along if it works for you — “Even when God created the world - he looked around and said - it was good… not PERFECT — It was GOOD.”

So thank you for the share-a-py… vital in my steps to get on with things — and stop dwelling — if nothing else - it's a comfort to know that other good, normal, contiencious people go rounds with this undeserved guilt thing too —

Sleep aid is kicking in now - thank GOd! Take care!